The Stuff That We're Happy

I know I'm white, straght, male, and cis, so I can't talk about privilege for shit. This may be a "poor me" post, and I haven't earned that at all. I've been pretty FUCKING lucky in this world, really. But there IS a problem, if we can look past the fact that my life has zero problems. No one has ever given good advice on how to "make it" in any art. Even when they're brutally honest and tell you to sacrifice everything and hope for the best even though most people won't achieve their goal.. that's not even advice. They're just telling 90% of us to starve to death, give up, or... no I'm not going to include success as an option. Winning the lottery isn't actually a possible outcome. The lottery is a scam. Can you imagine everyone who won the lottery telling you they just worked hard enough? It's a lottery. I'm not even sure if "you have to play to win" applies. I think my odds are just as likely if I don'...

...at a real job. Not on a project. It's a bummer. I thought this job was going to be very head down, zone out on a mindless task, which would have been relatively nice. They even let you wear headphones all day. But they started training me for a new job almost immediately. That has been a lot of new information to absorb and basicallystressful. I think weirdly now that I'm done training I can maybe mostly go back to my head down task. But anyway. I wake up at 3:30 in the morning, and we get overtime most weeks, and I have a baby at home, so I've really had to set aside drawing and writing. I had actuallybasically just signed up to mentor with Andrew White (great cartoonist) but that fell through no surprise. He was really nice. I'll have to send him a thanks for trying email. Anyway, weird perk, I've been getting to read books for the first time in a long time during my breaks in weird two page chunks sometimes. It's about an hour a day total (4 or 5 days a we...